Power is in the air.

Whether you are a believer in natural magic or not, most people accept that the Moon has a huge influence over our lives.
I can always tell when the Moon is nearing full – my inspirations & energy go into overdrive. It’s fantastic but does wreak havoc with my sleep pattern.

People throughout the generations have used the phases of the Moon to decide when the optimum time is to set plans into action, plant seedlings, harvest food & many other things. The Universal energies are intense at the time of the full Moon, so it makes sense to use that time to do things that need a positive boost. Similarly the New Moon is the time to start new plans & ideas.

As I am getting older, this energy force is getting more pronounced. If I’ve been planning something, I know that the full Moon is the time to set things in motion. At the moment I am eager to get my workshop booked, the Moon tells me not to procrastinate, do it now. I trust my intuition. I know when the time is right. Unfortunately I am also a 60+ scatterbrain! I am attempting to get more organised & yes, I am getting there but it’s frustrating when I miss a deadline or appointment because I have so much on my mind.

The bizarre thing is that when I need to focus on a particular subject, I find that I naturally prioritise & almost become a different person.
Rosie the motivational speaker or Rosie the workshop leader is very different from Rosie the shopaholic or chatterer. I think that we all have several personas but are often afraid to allow the other sides of our personalities to shine through. It seems logical that for us to be in total balance, we have to allow all sides of our being to be used.

I used to think that the scatterbrained me was who I was, but I now realise that I was very much mistaken. Initially at any function or meeting, I have 5 minutes of mayhem, once that’s out of my system, I can commit to my given task. In an ideal world I would always choose to arrive early at an event, but I haven’t yet mastered that. When I arrive in a rush, I don’t have time for my energies to settle & am like a whirling dervish. Clients & friends tend to look on, very dubious at the wisdom/ ability of this madwoman. I have been told on many occasions how pleasantly surprised they have been once I settle into my balanced self.

As my T’ai Chi training progresses, I am becoming more capable of finding my inner calm without the whirlwind start, unfortunately I am often running so late that I don’t allow myself the time to get centred.

Ah well. Nobody is perfect. Like most of the human race, I am work in progress. As I previously mentioned, I am getting there, but at times I need to forgive myself for not being more organised. Maybe one dayūüėČ.

Rosie X

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Too much rushing, not enough doing!

I haven’t written a blog for a while now. Almost everyday I think of things that I’d like to write about, often I even jot down ideas or use my voice recorder ( sometimes reeling off an entire blog ) yet for some reason, I just haven’t had time to actually sit down & write! ¬† Of course when I say that I haven’t had the time, what I really mean is that I haven’t FOUND the time! ¬†Although not really a procrastinator, I do have an amazing knack of losing time. I could blame one of my conditions, fibromyalgia for it, but although that does play it’s part, it’s not the full story.

So what is the full story?

I could write a comprehensive list with many valid excuses for why I don’t get things done, but that would be avoiding facing the facts. ¬†Isn’t that what too many people do when they don’t want to admit simply being disorganised?

I COULD BE IN THE RUNNING FOR THE CROWN AS Ms DISORGANISED 2016. ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† I am very good at planning. ¬†I excel when it comes to writing lists. ¬†I have a very sharp memory when it comes to the little details, the things that many people overlook, BUT………………… ¬†When it comes down to getting things done for myself, I’m dreadful! ¬† ¬†Things used to be very different, I could multi- task with the best of them. ¬†I seemed to find hidden hours, where I was able to fit in a near unbelievable amount of tasks, yet still be standing at the end of the day. ¬†I suppose that being retired has a lot to answer for! ¬†When I had children at home, I had to keep to a schedule, I had to provide meals, do the laundry, feed the multitude of pets, as well as the human variety. Housework would be fitted in & around other things but always got done, bills would be dealt with at the appropriate time. ¬†In ¬†other words, I managed. ¬†I agree that it was always a case of organised chaos, but things did get done.

Now? ¬†I have all day to spend as I wish – & that’s the problem! ¬†I rarely set an alarm, I wake, then get up when I want to. ¬†I amble around my flat in my dressing gown while I follow the necessary routine of feeding my cat, cleaning his litter tray, making my breakfast & so on. ¬†Unless I have an appointment, I shower & dress when I feel like it. There is no pressure. There is very little stress. ¬†I don’t have to answer to anyone. ¬†Meals are made & eaten at random times. ¬†As for housework, the less said the better! ¬† ¬† ¬†It’s not that I am lazy, far from it. ¬†I keep myself extremely busy, although I do often question what it is exactly that I do all day. ¬†I don’t watch daytime tv. I don’t languish in bed with a cuppa, or spend hours soaking in the bath. ¬† I don’t spend hours chatting on the phone or even waste my days on social media ( although that has been known to happen) ¬† Basically I potter! ¬†I do a little bit here, a little bit there, always intending to get the essentials out of the way so that I can do what is important to me. ¬† Unfortunately I potter about so much, keeping myself occupied, that by the time I decide to settle down to write or read or paint, I have used up all of my energy!

I know about the importance of keeping to a schedule but it is so difficult to maintain when the only one cracking the whip is yourself! ¬†My doctors are forever telling me about taking care of my health, how important it is for me to pace myself. They don’t seem to grasp the fact that to be able to pace yourself, you first of all need to start! ¬† Occasionally I wake early, get out of bed immediately, have myself & cat up & organised by 7am. ¬†I love those days! ¬† I have always been a morning ¬†person, preferring to be up with the dawn chorus, it’s such a wonderful, fresh time of the day but over the past year or so, I find myself still up & fully awake at 3 or 4am. I frequently can be found cleaning the kitchen or defrosting the freezer at midnight. ¬†Unfortunately the early hours of the morning are my creative times, in the stillness of the night is when I am filled with inspiration, when I want to write. ¬†I have tried setting myself a writing schedule, it all looks great on paper, but it just doesn’t seem to work for me. ¬†I know that I could become more disciplined, ¬†but I have had a lifetime of that, now is my ‘me’ time. ¬†However there is so much that I want to do, that I end up doing none of them.

On my fridge I have a slogan that reads ” Always be calmly active & actively calm” I agree wholeheartedly, yet I seem to rush around like a headless chicken ( bad expression for a vegan to use!) ¬†I have been actively decluttering for well over a year now, yet I am getting more & more obsessed by it. ¬†I turn out drawers to clear out the unwanted things that ¬†were kept ‘in case they might come in handy one day’. I now have several empty drawers, yet piles of larger item still scattered around my home, just waiting to go to the charity shop & even more small items waiting to leap into the empty drawers.

Maybe I should give up, shove everything out of sight & blame my illnesses?

Or of course there is a really radical solution. ¬†I could stop worrying about why I don’t find enough to spare time and just actually CHANGE MY MINDSET. ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬†Time spent worrying, is always time wasted. ¬†Instead of saying that I am disorganised, I could become organised. It is time for me to take personal responsibility for my chaos. ¬† I would tell friends to use positive affirmations, I know how well they can work.

So I will start here & now.

” I have no need to rush, I have all the time & energy that I need. I use my time wisely.”

“I have no need to rush. I have all the time & energy that I need. I use my time wisely”

“I have no need to rush. I have all the time & energy that I need. I use my time wisely”

Now I shall go into the kitchen, make a chamomile tea & get an early night. I have a whole new regime to get up early for!

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Thankyou for persevering to the end of my waffle. ¬†Maybe one or two of you might find following a similar train of thought useful. ¬†Apparently it would seem that you don’t need to be a procrastinator to procrastinate!

love & light to one & all,

Rosie x

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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